May 18,2015
Monday, today I continued a new routine of a lunch time meeting. Today's topic was making a difference. I found myself thinking about what that means.... making a difference. I think most see it as a big picture or a lifetime. And are they where they want to be?
Today making a difference for me, is far different that it was 1016 days or 2.8 years ago. I was struggling to figure out how life went so very wrong? And just this weekend I was shown how my view was skewed. While shopping for groceries, I came face to face with one of the primary motivating factors for my life style change 2.8 years ago. I was quickly reminded of where I came from, and wondered if I should be somewhere else. I became flushed with "oh crap? what do I do?"
I quickly said a quick prayer, and gave it up. God (my higher power) quickly responded and sent in his troops. First it was Gail from church, then hockey mom, and a member of my group, then a baseball mom, and then a classmates mom. The hello's, how are you, and the genuine happiness to see me, and ask how I was, letting me know I looked good, and my goodness I felt good, even great.
Facing the fear of this situation, which played out in my mind 100 times, was not nearly as expected or projected. I was calm and confident in knowing God's got this. This is the difference.
The difference is trusting, and giving it up. I am different. And it feels good!
Psalm 57:2 ESV
I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills his purpose for me.
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